Can you make thyself sick? Yes
Will you know that it’s your own fault? Yes, but you’ll hide it.
I have been feeling ill for the past 3 (i think!) days; stomach pains, endless headache and aching eyes. It’s probably the usual/yearly flu. But looking at the mirror this morning i realised i’m kidding myself; I am making myself sick. With what you might ask; well first of all i am working a 60+ hour week and my father died more than a month ago. I thought i was fine; apparently i am not. Since day 1 I stood strong by my mother hoping to make her strong enough so she can take back over her usual duties. But a month has passed and we’re still at the same place. She’s been talking about getting a job and she has been going to interviews, but her constain worry is taking its toll not only on her. Waking up at 5:30am she starts her day waking me and my sister up; throwing immediately her load off problems on us before going to work and school respectively.
I know i shouldn’t be saying this but this is starting to bug me. Last week i decided to spend the whole of Sunday out; this week i spend the whole weekend in (not by choice, more because of the massive headache!). Last week she complained that i was loud and spending all my time out; this week she complained that i’m too quiet! I know i shouldn’t be hard on her but this is getting ridicilious. And i’m noticing that my sister is feeling the same way even though she isn’t talking at all. But she does look angry all the time.
Ugh! How am i gonna fix this?!!
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Now playing: Lady GaGa – Dance In The Dark
